Comfort from where??

I sat during my alone time with God mulling over Job 6 and thinking:  why do we expect others to be our comfort?  Why do we feel our hearts break every time our world comes crashing down around us and we turn to our friends only to find either they are not there and have pulled the disappearing act OR they are there but all they do is point a finger at how you should have done this or you should do that and how all of your problems are your fault.    Ever feel that way?

Now  I am not saying that we don’t need true and honest friends.  NO that is not it ALL!!!  We need to be honest with each other and hold each other accountable.  What I am saying is that there is a time when we just need comfort and someone to listen and hold us when we are down.  Not finger pointing.  I am also saying we need to stop relying fully on each other for this because we are all flawed and the only one to give us true and complete answers is God.

We need to start leaning more on God more and people less.  2 Samuel 22:2 says “The Lord is my Rock and my Fort.  He is the one who saves me.”  Several other verses clearly call the Lord our Rock as well:  (Psalm 18:2, 92:15, 144:1; 2 Samuel 22:47)

To me when I picture the Rock/my Lord I see something rather large (and no I do not mean Dwayne Johnson………)  I see something that gives me shade when the heat from this world is too much.  I see something that I can hide behind when I feel the enemy attacking me.  I see a giant rock that is perfectly capable of holding up my 200+ pounds and ALL the baggage that I have.

So why can’t I learn to lean on Him?  Why do I not learn to do as Matthew 7:24-27 says to do and build my faith and foundation on the one who NEVER moves and who is a strong tower.

Yes He will reprimand you if you do wrong and maybe that is why your world is crumbling around you BUT if you stand firm in your faith.  If you rely solely on the Lord and not friends and if you just cry out and trust Him………….  He will save you.  He has a purpose for your life, so stop fighting Him and lean on the one and ONLY rock.

Remember Matthew 28:20  I am with you always, to the very end of the age.

He will never go away and will always be beside you.


Lord, Thank you for being our comforter, our Rock and our great provider.  Thank you for always being with us to the end of age.  May we learn to completely surrender to you and feel your presence in everything we do.  AMEN

Re Evaluate

Job 13:9  Would it turn out well if he examined you?  Could you deceive him as you might deceive a mortal?

Here Job asks a very point blank and honest question that in reality we all need to ask ourselves daily.  Every single one of us has had a moment or maybe a whole slew of moments where we just keep digging ourselves deeper and deeper into a rut.  Those of us who are Christian in the back of our head think “I know God sees this but maybe He’s too busy with someone else and I can cover it up or I can just act like it didn’t happen….”   Let me see a show of hands out there that have done this or done something and they think nobody will know.  Let me see those hands.  HMMMM  well I obviously didn’t see them if you raised them or not but if you didn’t, remember HE does see them and HE knows if you just lied or not.

God wants us to trust him and to know that He is all that we need.  He wants us to realize that He sees everything we do and we can’t deceive Him anymore than we can deceive ourselves.  So He wants us to examine ourselves daily.  Examine our minds and our souls to reassess and realign with Him each and every morning.  The Bible starts out with the words:  “In the beginning”.  Well that beginning for some of us needs to be every day.  We need to make each new day a beginning so that we can set ourselves straight and remember that the Lord is always there and He sees all.

The day you gave your life to Jesus Christ was the day you accepted that God was doing something in your life and you were surrendering it to Him.  You see He started this plan before you were in your mothers womb (Jeremiah 1:5).  He knew way before you raised your hand that he had great plans for you.

Philippians 1:6  And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.

Yes He will continue to do this work in you even when you are in your deepest rut thinking that He can’t see you.  You can NOT deceive him as you might deceive a mortal.  That is one of the answers to the above questions.

The answer to the first question is entirely up to you though.  What will He find?  Will it turn out well or will it not?  What will your judgement day be like?  Remember these last two verses and know that God loves you.  Just surrender to Him and hold fast while trying to keep from sin.

Hosea 12:6  So you, By the help of your God, return, hold fast to love and justice and wait continually for your God. 

Hebrews 13:8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.


Lord, please help us to reevaluate our lives and to realign them with you.  May we remember daily that you are good and you never change only we do.  We thank you today, tomorrow and all the days to come through every good and bad moment.  We raise our hands in surrender and we love you more than anything there is.  AMEN


I Surrender

I have been on a rollercoaster ride called life forever.

I am sick and just want it to stop.

Feeling like I am hanging on by a rough rope.

You say to hold on but my hands are bleeding from holding so tight.

I trust in you, Lord that this dripping blood is not for nothing.


Hold on to me tight, Lord.

Pull me into your lap and keep me safe.

Hold on to me tight, Lord.

Protect me from these storms surrounding me.


When I found you I didn’t understand.

How do you love someone who isn’t physically there?

How do you trust someone you can’t see?

Help me to feel you, Lord.  Help me to see you.

I trust in you, Lord that you love me and you are with me.


Hold on to me tight, Lord.

Pull me into your lap and keep me safe.

Hold on to me tight, Lord.

Protect me from these storms surrounding me.


You are my Saviour.

You gave your son’s life for me.

You loved this lonesome sinner before she ever took a breath.

Show me, Lord how to trust you, feel you, see you and love you.

Help me to surrender.

Help me Lord overcome this stormy life.


Hold on to me tight, Lord.

Pull me into your lap and keep me safe.

Hold on to me tight, Lord.

Protect me from these storms surrounding me.


I am kneeling

Hands raised high

Giving my all

I surrender

Law vs. Relationship

On my way to work today I was thinking about what I saw and experienced at MEPS the other day while waiting for my son to be sworn into the Army and how this could be what it looked like if we followed laws or legalism compared to following and being completely in love with Christ.  When you pull into the parking lot you have to get out of your car and stand in line to get inside.  Depending on how early you get there depends on how long you stand there.  We were told to be there at 7 but we had to stand in this line until after 9.  Then you get ushered into the first room with metal detectors and conveyor belts one at a time or one family at a time.  They search what needs searched and scan what needs scanned and then give you your visitor sticker.  You walk into the main “holding area” and you see people everywhere that are testing or waiting to be shipped out to give their lives for us.  Which in itself is humbling and amazing but that is a whole different writing.  Someone points and tells you to go into a waiting room until they call you in to see your loved one sworn in and then you are rushed out after pictures and goodbyes.  To me it felt like one we were rushing to wait and also like we were robots just being pushed around and steered as if we had no minds of our own.  This is what I see in my head as what happens when we just follow law.  It’s cold, unemotional and robotic.

Many of us go through life like this.  We are only here to live one day at a time working, family and following law just waiting until the day we die.  Just going through the motions and nothing else and we feel like if we don’t then we will be struck dead by God on the spot.

God wants so much more for us than that, though.  He wants us to be in a relationship with Him.  He wants us to be in love with Him and the life He has given us.  We are to leave the old behind and not love the world but give our all to Him.  He sent His son to tear the veil between us and Him because He was tired of seeing us fearful of Him.  Galatians 5:4 talks about if we follow the law of God (from old ways) we are cut off from Christ.  He says this because if we are following the laws rather than Christ we do not love Christ, we are not in a one on one relationship with Christ or the Father.

It’s like being at MEPS we had to sit in a certain spot and could only leave to go to the bathroom.  We were fearful and even told not to go anywhere else in the building.  Just like we were afraid to step out of line there many are afraid to step out of line with God.  He doesn’t want this anymore.  He doesn’t want us to see Him as the lightening striking “I’m going to kill you all off for not obeying me” God that He is in the Old Testament.  He wants us to have the fruits of the spirit such as Joy and peace to name a few.  He wants us to see Him to know that He is our Daddy God our Abba.  We can go to Him and sit on His knee and cry and scream and yell when we need to or laugh and just relax with Him.

We need to start learning to have our loving relationship with the Holy Trinity.  Let God be our Heavenly Father, Christ our Heavenly brother and the Holy Spirit a part of our soul.   Just imagine how much happier life would be.  How more relaxed would you be if you weren’t living in fear of doing something wrong at every moment?  Just learn to sit and talk with Them and have a relationship as you do with your best friend.  That’s all They are asking of you.

Lord, Thank you for wanting a relationship with me.  Thank you for loving me as you do and giving me the peace knowing that I can come sit on your knee or be held in your arms when I need to.  May my love for you grow more and more every day.  AMEN

Rest first then work!

38As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”

41 “Martha, Martha,”the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things,42but few things are needed—or indeed only one.  Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”


How many of us are always busy busy busy?  We live in a world where we seem to have to be on the go at all times.  Especially as a Christian (sorry not sorry,  It’s true).  Since I have become a Christian I feel like I am always on the go.  For the longest time I felt like if I wasn’t doing something for the church then I was ungrateful and lazy.  If I stopped and rested for my own sake I was selfish and backsliding because I had to be out there doing something.  I had to volunteer here or take this study there and volunteer even further out there.  All of this on top of working full time, going to school full time, AND being the one and only one taking care of three children.  You know who got the short end of the deal?  My children for one, but so did God.  The one who I was supposedly doing all of this for.

Christ doesn’t want us to worry and be rushing around trying to do do do for everyone else.  Yes, He wants us to bring more people to Him.  Help save His sheep is the name of the game but how can we do this if we don’t do as Mary did?  Do we really know what we are doing if we don’t sit at His feet daily and listen to what He wants?  How do we know what we are doing if we aren’t getting instructions from the Boss himself?

Christ says in verse 42 that “Mary has chosen what is better”.  Sitting at Christ’s feet is better.  This is what should really be our priority.  I’m not the best at starting out the day with Him and I know that I should change this because to be honest I do find myself still getting busy and then I don’t spend any time with Him and days go by and I start to feel beyond drained.  REST, he wants us to rest at His feet!!

You want to do well for God, start at His feet and then go out and try to concur the world for Him one soul at a time.  Start out being a Mary and then be a Martha after you have rested.


Lord, forgive us for forgetting to rest at your feet.  You are the Boss, our Leader and we need to focus more on what you are trying to say to us then what we are doing.  We love you Lord and we worship you with every ounce in us.  AMEN

Let’s Walk

Many times in this world we feel like we are doing life alone.  We feel like we are walking whatever path just happens to spring up on us for that moment and like a robot we are just walking it.  Days tend to become a haze and nights a blur.  Just going through the motions of life and then we die.

That’s not what this life is about, though.  We were brought here to love God and for Him to love us.  Many of us feel like He isn’t there.  I know I personally don’t feel anyone is there for me or wants to be with me unless they are right there and I can feel and touch them.  Unless you are tangibly right in front of me then you don’t exist to me or your promise to be there for me isn’t real.  I’ve been learning, though, GOD IS THERE!!  No I can’t touch him but He is right here in front of me.

Every morning I get up and get ready for work and move through the motions of life.  Occasionally (yes it should be every day) I will ask God what He wants from me and from this day and I know that He will talk back to me in one form or another .  Usually it’s like a little day dream or a word of something that is going to happen that day.  So I pray and say ok.  Then I always try to get to work extra early because at the moment my little one bedroom apartment is over run by other people so I don’t feel comfortable sitting at home to have coffee and read my bible.  So I come to work and I turn on my computer because it takes a while to fire up.  Then I open His word and as I do so I ask God to show me what truths He has for me and then show me the truths He wants me to share with everyone else.  And He does.

Some days I feel like I am reading one of my childhood adventure stories.  I feel like just as with Romeo & Juliet or Gone with the Wind, or Diary of Anne Frank (yes those WERE my adventure stories.  LOL) I am right there in that time where Paul is speaking to the nations.  I am right there at His feet when Christ is crucified or when Peter is denying Him (and trust me I want to reach out like any mother and slap him upside his head and ask him what he is thinking).  I am living in my bible.  I am living God’s word.

God feels the same with us.  God isn’t just lording over us.  He isn’t up there being a puppet master with us.  He is right here next to us, walking through the day with us.  Today I was reading 2 Corinthians Chapter six and Paul said this to the Corinth’s

1As God’s co-workers we urge you not to receive God’s grace in vain. 2For he says, “In the time of my favor I heard you,

and in the day of salvation I helped you.”

I tell you, now is the time of God’s favor, now is the day of salvation.


He is our co-worker.  NLT version says we are His partners.  This doesn’t sound like a puppet master to me.  This sounds like someone who is walking beside us and wants us to walk beside Him.  I see it as we have two missions in life.  The first is to be saved.  God is our salvation and we need to take it.  The second is to help God save others.  Walk beside Him and help gather His children to Him.  Even if it is just by our actions of love.  We don’t have to speak or do anything our actions are our words.  Just as God’s actions and grace show us love.

Paul says in verse 12 “We are not withholding our affection from you, but you are withholding yours from us”  The same goes with God.  He is not withholding His love from us.  His love is all around us we just need to open our eyes and our hearts to see it.  He is pouring out this love and affection but we in turn are the ones that are holding back and we need to stop.  Verse 13 goes on to say “open wide your hearts also” Our hearts need to be open and we need to pour out our love and our worship to God and we need to pour it out for each other.

We need to stop hiding or cowering in a corner of fear thinking that if we do the smallest thing wrong or if we have the worst past imaginable that God won’t love us.  We need to realize that the moment that we open our hearts to Him He comes in through His Holy Spirit and He starts to walk beside us helping us to live better lives. He starts to walk beside us leading us down the path that He intended for us all along but He was just waiting for you to open up and let Him in.


Lord, Thank you for being our co-worker, our confidant, our love.  Thank you for all the beauty and love that you show in every little thing around us.  Thank you for opening our hearts and showing us what true love is.  May we continue to walk your path and only your path.  AMEN

Calm my fear, Lord

I feel today that I am being told that my pain is there because of my fear of letting go.  My fear that What I thought was from God wasnt and that meant that I had been wrong for so long which then my automatic reaction is to feel like a failure.  That is the pain that is still there.  Not what I thought.  The pain is caused because I felt like I failed at all of it.  BUT God is telling me it’s ok.  I didn’t fail.  I can let go of all of it and I can move forward with His love and Grace.  He will calm this emotional storm in me and bring me out of this depression with a clean and renewed spirit and purpose.  Just rest in Him.  So that is what I am going to do rest in Him.  Does anyone else need to rest Him?  Let’s pray together 
  God, We are putting it all at your feet.  We are pounding them on to your cross so that we may live without these shoulders being pushed down and free to sing and dance your praise.  We known you are our full and pure cofort and may we trust in you with everything in us so that we can live the happy and free lives you want us to live.  We love you and we worship only you Lord.  Amen