In Isaiah 54:1 it talks about barren desolate women. According to my study Bible this is Jerusalem describing that Gods people had nothing. I also see myself in it. Obviously not because I didn’t have children because I have three. No its because of this last part that says “because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband.” Isaiah 54:1(NIV) In my journaling today I wrote that I can relate to Jerusalem and how they felt. It is because I have learner and am still learning that God really is the only one I can rely on. I don’t have that husband to be my covering and to help me follow Gods word. Just me and God.
When you have nothing and all you can do is pray for God to make the miraculous happen then sometimes it feels like life is hopeless. Sometimes even though you KNOW God has a plan and God has your back you can still feel completely alone in everything and every choice you wonder if it was the right one.
The biggest thing I seem to be struggling learning is to be content in God and His plan even through the storm. I do KNOW that God has it all under control. I know it all works out in the end for His will and His glory. No matter what I do the outcome will be the same so why fight it? Why make it worse than it needs be? Why make it harder on myself? It would be so much easier to just keep to myself, keep my mouth shut and just let God do His thing.
I feel at times like one of our dogs. Going on trips is o hard with and for her. She HATES the leash and refuses to go to the bathroom while on it. So she has to be stuck in her crate or bathroom when in the room and she gets us angry and frustrated because we don’t like doing this. If she would just follow our instruction and what the other dogs do it would be so much easier for her. So much more enjoyable. Same with me. If I just stop fighting His will life would be so much easier and enjoyable.
Lord, help me to just be content and calm in what you want for me. Help me to not argue or say anything to upset. Show me the path you have for me so that I may follow. I will just stay still and not move till you tell me to Lord. Your lead and o ly your lead is what I will follow. May your will be done in my life. Amen