Just get it

Exodus 9: 12But the lord hardened Pharaoh’s heart, and just as the lord had predicted to Moses, Pharaoh refused to listen.

Exodus 9: 30But I know that you and your officials still do not fear the lord God

Exodus 10:2I’ve also done it so you can tell your children and grandchildren about how I made a mockery of the Egyptians and about the signs I displayed among them—and so you will know that I am the lord.”


You ever wonder why God hardened Pharaoh’s heart if He was truly trying to get the Israelites out of Egypt? Why keep doing things over and over again when you don’t have to. You are God you should be able to just snap your finger and it’s done.

True BUT how else will one learn? How else will one realize there really is a one true God? Sometimes we have to be hit in the head a few times before we finally get it.

What are you being hit in the head with right now that God wants you to just get it already?


Lord, please open our eyes and our hearts so that we finally get whatever it is that you are trying to teach us. Help us to see that there is an easier path to take and that is yours when we leave it all in your hands. Thank you for being willing to take on our burdens and allowing us to have peace like none other. AMEN

Right where he wants us

The more I read of Exodus the more I realize it is our story. It is what we as Christians seem to live every single day. We push more and more to do as GOD wants us to do and not the world but yet we find ourselves seeming to suffer more. We fight to do right and we feel like we are constantly in a battle zone. We cry out to God and we feel like he isn’t listening to us. Many of us not sure of what to do we start to get lax in our battle and we stop crying out to the one we think isn’t listening. We stop doing as much for His kingdom. We stop studying His word. And things seem to get easier. The battle isn’t so hard any more……

I believe this is one of many reasons why we lose so many people for His kingdom. They are tired of fighting so they just go back to the old ways. Or maybe a happy medium.


The enemy wants us complacent and happy to just move forward as if nothing is wrong in this world. He wants us to be lukewarm or cold to God so that we won’t be fighting him as hard. He is trying to take over this world for himself.

We cannot allow this. God wins in the end but He wants us His children to win with Him NOT to sit here and be complacent with the yuck that has become our temporary home.

Yes the battle is hard. Trying to stay and fight the good fight for God is not all peaches and cream and roses in a garden. It is hard to stay good in a world of evil. But we must! We must keep pushing forward and doing exactly what the Lord wants us to do because in the end we will have our perfect home. He will save us, His people. He will not forsake us. We are His children and just as we as parents would do for ours, He will do anything for us. He will never leave us.

My prayer today is simple:

1 Kings 8: 57 May the Lord our God be with us as he was with our ancestors; may he never leave us or abandon us.


He hears your cry

We cry, we scream, we fall to pieces,  feeling cold and alone.  But someone is there.  Someone hears our cries.  Though we may not think it is true God really does see and hear everything and He does remember us His children.  How many times as a child did you think your parents didnt know how you felt?  Only to find out they really did? 

Or as a parent how many times did you hear or see your precious baby crying and remember just how that pain felt?  You were always there for them the best you could be but at times you knew you had to step back and let them stand alone to learn a lesson. 

Our Abba Father is the same.  He hears our cries.  He sees our struggles and our tears. He is there for us to help us through or to hold us up while we have to stand and be strong.  Just as He made a covenant with Abraham and just as He gave us the rainbow as a promise He also has promised He will never leave us. 

He is there for us.  Things will be better for us we just need to trust in Him and feel His peace knowing He hears ours cries and handles them the way they will best fit the kingdom He is preparing for us.  Have peace knowing your Abba has it all under control and in the palm of His hand.

Exodus 2:24. God heard their groaning and He remembered His covenant with Abraham with Isaac and with Jacob.

Lord, we ask you please hear our cry.  See our tears and hold us close.  Giving us peace beyond any other through these storms.  We trust you, we love you and we praise you with thankfulness.  Amen


I have an anger issue.  I have been fighting this my entire life.  I get angry easily and my temper just snaps at a split second.  For a long time I just let it go.  I felt justified to be like this.  I mean if someone was going to be jerk enough to make me angry then I was justified to lose my temper.  That was my thought process for years.  Growing up that’s what I saw because my father had the same temper.  Granted my parents tried to curb my temper from the very beginning but as I grew up and the crap of adult life started happening I just let it all go again.  I was horrible with my kids and lost my temper easily.  I pushed away many many men because of anger telling myself that if they weren’t going to be EXACTLY what I wanted when I wanted then they weren’t worth my time (granted most it was a good thing they were gone.  lol)  I lost many many friendships over the years because of that temper and anger issues.

In the last year, though, I have started to go to a group at church called Celebrate Recovery.  It is for all habits, hurts and hangups and there are people there that have been helping me through so much of that anger, and the codependency and just, as I tell them all the time, all the YUCK in my life and in my past.  We are a forever family that is there for each other the way that no other family can be.

Because of this group and because of my growth in and with God I am learning that all the hatred and the anger and the yucky feelings are not worth holding on to.  Why do we really think that all that BS hurts the other person?  We tell ourselves that the unforgiveness and anger that we are holding onto will hurt the other person and that is our revenge.  It doesn’t though.  99.9% of the time that other persons doesn’t really care.  They just move on with their lives and forget about all of it.  It does eat you alive though.  It hurts you emotionally, mentally and eventually physically.  Is all that worth it?

So now I am learning (i still have my moments) that instead of getting angry about the spilt milk, instead of getting angry because someone ignores me or turns my moment that I needed someone into their own with their “its all about me” attitude.  Instead of getting angry and hurt over being lonely or someone spreading rumors, I am learning to just shrug it off.  As one person told me in the past just QUACK!  Be a duck and let it slide off of your back. Or as Joyce Meyers said in my devotional today just say “oh well.”  Cause honestly if you can’t change what happened than why be angry or worry about it.  So I leave you today with this said from the one who says it best:

Stop being angry!  Turn from your rage!  Do not lose your temper—it only leads to harm.   Psalms 37:8


Lord,  Help us to breath through the impossible times.  Help us to let go of the anger and worry and our tempers and to just live in your glorious peace.  Though the world may swirl around us and we may want to jump into that swirling wirldwind help us to just stand firm in your peace and know that you have it all under control.  AMEN

Let it go

No, I am NOT going to break out into the song of Frozen.  In fact when you read the lyrics to the song,  it is touching, yes, but it’s not really about what so many of us think of when we hear those words.  No, what I am saying when I say “let it go”  I am saying let the past go.  Let everything that happened back behind you go.

Seriously think about it.  Can you really change what happened in your past?  Whether it was five seconds ago or five years ago, it happened, you can’t change it (unless you have a time machine that is.  but that’s a whole other topic).  So why do we as humans stress over what we already did??

Phillipians 3:13 says No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.

I want you to really focus on that statement in bold.  Forget what you can not change and look forward to the future.  This needs to be our goal in life.  We chan’t change our past but we can move towards our future.  Even if it is only one second at a time during a depression or rough patch, just keep focused on what’s ahead.  For us believers we need to then look at the next verse.

Phillipians 3:14I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us

The Lord is calling us.  He has a prize for us at the end of all of this yuck that we call life.  Through out the bible His people had to deal with yuck BUT God still gave them a great story.  He still saved them.  He still sent His one and only Son to save us little bitty sinners.  So when you wake up in the morning and you don’t want to get out of bed because of yesterdays woes or you stumble during the day over something that starts to discourage you, let it go and look forward to the future and the ultimate prize that God has waiting for you.


Lord,  I come with just one simple prayer.  Help us to let it go.  AMEN

The need to laugh more

Wow.  I didn’t realize that it has been so long since I have written anything on here.  But if you all are patient with me this needs to change.  I felt even before the new year came that God was leading me to start writing every day.  To share my thoughts, my life journey and my faith with those that are willing to read it.  Those that He may lead to read this.  I felt He was telling me that it would be used for Him and that is all I want.  Is to be used by Him and for Him.  So  I am 9 days late from what I tried to say was going to be the start date of this new journey but hey better late then never and as usual I will believe that this is His perfect timing.


With that said I read something today that made me sit back and say “really? that shouldn’t be hard.” but then when contemplating it, it actually can be in todays world.  What I read was from my Joyce Meyers devotional that I am currently doing.  She says “In the world we live in, there isn’t a great deal to laugh about so we will need to do it on purpose.”  Now when I was contemplating this I realized she is dead on when it comes to there not being much to laugh about.  We live in a world where there is constant strife and war.  And not only as nation against nation but even in our own homes.  We battle the enemy everyday even in our own heads.  So really what is there to laugh about?


Well, actually, there is a lot to laugh about.  Like a baby we need learn to find joy in even the smallest of things.  Find amazement in God’s creation that we are surrounded by.  Look at your hands, your feet, even the hair on your head.  How amazing is it that this is something our God created.  Yes, scientists say that it’s made by this or that but then my question is where did this and that come from.  It all had to come from one ultimate being.  Something had to start it all.  Then look at all the people you are surrounded by and just sit back and enjoy a good chuckle on how DIFFERENT we all are.  God created trillions and trillions of people ALL OF THEM UNIQUE!  If that doesn’t strike you as amazing and give you a good tickle of joy then I don’t know what would.  Just look around you and sit in amazement at it all.  When I sit back and do this I start to laugh.  Sometimes just because it makes me so happy to be a part of and other times because, well lets be honest, God has quite the sense of humor.  LOL

The BEST part of all of this!  He doesn’t ask for anything in return except for our undying love towards him and for us to be joyful.  Psalms 32:11 says “11So rejoice in the lord and be glad, all you who obey him!Shout for joy, all you whose hearts are pure!”  I don’t know about the rest of you but even though my life feels like it is falling apart around me I WANT TO STAND UP AND SHOUT FOR JOY!!!!  So Really?  How hard is that?



We come to you today jumping for joy and raising our hands to you.  Lord, please reach down and grab ahold of our hands, our hearts and our souls and just send your holy spirit through us.  Give us your joy.  open our eyes to see all the amazing funny things that you want us to see.  Help us to walk around with our frowns upside down and just joyfully praising you.  We love you, Lord, and we thank you from the bottoms of our toes for every little thing you have done, are doing, and will do in the future for us.  In your heavenly name we pray, AMEN