So I am not sure if anyone has noticed. Some have. There is a transition going on in me. A transformation. A metamorphosis of sorts. I feel like my whole body could explode from my soul trying to jump out and dance like never before.
What is bringing on this change you ask? I have surrendered my complete all to my Lord. He is my husband and I am His bride. He is my all and He fills my cup to overflowing. I have finally learned that I don’t need anything else as long as I have Him in my life.
I am screaming it out and sharing it in one way or another any way I can in this world that stifles us. I am still a sinner but He loves me anyway. He gave His entire life for me so why shouldn’t I give my entire life to Him?? He died for me but He’s asking me to LIVE for Him. I couldn’t ask for anyone to love me more because it doesn’t exist in this world.
I have realized that there is nothing in this world that can ever compare to this love that He has given me. No man or object in this world could ever make me as happy as I am now. Even on my darkest days when I am falling as we humans do He will still be the only thing that will pull me out.
I told my youngest last night that there is something huge coming. I do not know what it is but I am on edge and wanting to jump and run towards it. The excitement is building more and more inside of me until I feel like I could explode. I thirst and hunger to be completely focused on Him. This world holds nothing for me anymore. I cannot focus on life and works of this world. It bores me to tears but Him and all He has for me to come is exciting beyond belief.
Some of you may call me a bible thumper. You may start think I’m a freak or a fanatic and that’s ok. As long as I am a freak and a fanatic for my Lord and Jesus Christ! His Holy Ghost is in me and I am letting Him have control of my ever being. As I push forward towards my future I know that the change in me is going to make many walk away from me and all I can say to them is may their lives be blessed and wonderful. I pray that one day they will feel everything that I am feeling. I pray that someday everyone feels like a ticking time bomb of joy for the Lord.
Christ beside me,
Christ before me.
Christ behind me,
Christ within me.
Christ beneath me,
Christ above me.
May God surround me!