Truth is always revealed

EVERYONE LIES!  Whether it is to themselves, to a loved one, or to God.  We all do it and 99% of the time we will be found out.  With God you are found out 100% of the time.  So with these types of odds why do we do it?  Why are we not truthful with our loved ones, ourselves or God?  Especially with God the all knowing.  You can lie to everyone else all you want but GOD?  Seriously?  Even He questions it in Isaiah 57:11 11“Whom have you so dreaded and feared that you have not been true to me, and have neither remembered me nor taken this to heart? Is it not because I have long been silent that you do not fear me? 

We turn our backs because we either love something so much we don’t want to lose it or we are afraid of what will happen if we turn away from something or someone.  Afraid of harm lose, or something even worse so we are paralized into lying to everyone around us so that we can stay in our little boxes of comfort. Isaiah 59:12-15  “12For our offenses are many in your sight, and our sins testify against us. Our offenses are ever with us, and we acknowledge our iniquities: 13rebellion and treachery against the Lord, turning our backs on our God, inciting revolt and oppression, uttering lies our hearts have conceived. 14So justice is driven back, and righteousness stands at a distance; truth has stumbled in the streets, honesty cannot enter. 15Truth is nowhere to be found, and whoever shuns evil becomes a prey.”   Turth for us has disappeard.  We have turned away from God, truth and honesty because we believe our way is better.  What we forget is that eventually all those lies and secrets will come crashing down on our little box and crush it to dust.

We need to realize our Father will only let happen what needs to happen in order to wake us up.  In order to help us be stronger and learn from our mistakes, our past and our hurts.  He won’t let anything completely destroy us that He can’t get us out of.  Just as a teenager will do everything to protect their lies and secrets from their parents, we do the same to our God.  And just like those parents, Daddy God knows everything.  Even when He doesn’t say or do anything about it.  The time will come when all truth will be revealed and consequences will incur.  We just need to decide whether or not we want to turn back to truth now so that those consequences aren’t so bad or if we want to keep going until there is not turning back.

 

Daddy God, you know all my secrets and truths even if I dont’ say them out loud.  Help me to turn towards you rather than lies and help me to just bask in your light of truth rather than trying to hide my sinful ways.  Help me to turn my back away from all that is unpleasing to you and rest at your feet instead.  In your Heavenly name I pray.  AMEN

CONTROL FREAKS BEWARE YOU WILL LOSE

So many of us are control freaks. We want to be able to know what is happening, when it is happening, why it is happening and it HAS TO BE OUR WAY or it just won’t be right. I am a HUGE control freak and if it’s not going to be my way then I end up a crumpled up, tears rolling down my face, screaming at the top of my lungs like the world is ending, mess. Just ask my kids. LOL. That is why I have spent the majority of the last 20 years a complete and total control freak because let’s face it if you are a mom you normally don’t have much control. And I happened to be mom and dad to three very stubborn children. (they are my kids after all. J)

Well let me just say I am now on this journey of trying to “heal” and its driving me crazy because I have to admit all my wrongs, I have to go to people and make amends and I have to forgive people who the human side of me says they sure as heck don’t deserve my forgiveness after what they did. This is the most nerve racking, emotional rollercoaster I have ever been on and then to top it all off they want me to forgive myself are they flippin kidding me???? I had no control over my life and it was a mess and I did this wrong or that wrong why should I forgive myself? I don’t deserve that.

HAHAHA!!!! Is what I heard in my head today as I was thinking all of this and reading my devotionals. I could hear God laughing at me (as He does on pretty much a regular basis.) His plan is for me to let go of my past and let Him control my life. His plan is for me to have peace and freedom without being a mental case to try and get it. He is telling us:

Isaiah 43: 18“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. 19See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.

We just need to let go and Let Him and He will make our troubles in to triumphs. As I put it in my journal we need to leave behind the yuckyness of the past and realize that He is taking that yuckyness and making it into something beautiful. He is taking YOU and molding you into a beautiful Princess or Prince Child of God.

I don’t know about you but I hesitate when I read that and the control freak bubbles up and the insecurity comes in and I start to question Him. Why God? Why me? Why does this have to be like this or that? Why can’t I stay where I was comfortable? Well He did His usual going on about Israel being bad but He will bring them back to good and how He can do this or that and then BOP! He hits me on the head with this verse:

11“This is what the Lord says— the Holy One of Israel, and its Maker: Concerning things to come, do you question me about my children, or give me orders about the work of my hands? 12It is I who made the earth and created mankind on it. My own hands stretched out the heavens; I marshaled their starry hosts.

 

See, I am questioning Him and he is saying “seriously, Misty, how many times do I need to show you?   How many times do I have to do things for you right in front of your face before you stop questioning my love for YOU and my plans for YOU?” Why do we question Him about what He is doing in our lives or anyone else’s? He is the Almighty PERFECT Creator of all things. He knows what He is doing so we need to work harder to stop being control freaks and just let Him mold the perfect plan He has for us.

 

 

Lord, I come to you on my knees, as usual, begging you to forgive me for being a control freak. Please forgive me for questioning you and what your plans are in my life. Help me to let go and let you. Help me to remember to have an attitude of gratitude and learn to just be still in you. In your beautiful gracious name AMEN

Dont look back

So had a whisper again this morning I was told to share.  I am driving down 178 and looking in my mirrors at cars behind me hopng i am not going to slow that they will it me (mind you i am going 68 in a 65 zone lol)  when suddenly I am told rather sternly look in front of me.  Only briefly glance behind occasionally.   Dont dwell there because otherwise you miss what is coming at you.  So I thought about that.  And I have been told over and over that exact thing in life.  I need to stop focusing on the past and how (as I am reminded everytime I make someone mad) I screwed everything up.  I need to stop believing the lies that come from behind me and I need to focus on what is in front of me.  I need to focus on God and the future plans He has for me.  As for others if you want to join me on tbat journey then fine.  I am happy to have you BUT stop being poison and speaking all the negative past in my life or you wont be able to go with me.  Even if it hurts beyond belief to let you go it hurts more when you constantly remind me of the horrible person I was. 

Anyway sometjing tells me this is for someone else as well.  So wanna join me on this new road of only looking forward? 

Lord,  i know that is for not just me it is for someone else as well.  I ask you to let them feel you pull them into a tight Daddy tight right now.  Let them feel you walking with them as they face the road ahead and help block their mirrors so they cant look behind.  We love you Lord and we thank you for this glorious day.  AMEN

FAITH

Anyone that knows me knows that I whine and complain A LOT!!  and I know that this is a HORRIBLE habit and I really am trying to work on it.  I know that everyone has their own Hell and yada yada so I really need to stop putting mine out there.  I guess in some ways I am reaching out for prayer but seriously I do know that I need to work on it and I need to start putting more positive things out there on social media.  Be more encouraging and such.  In order to do this I need to work on my FAITH.  Everything that is falling apart around me I am starting to realize that I need to have more faith that God is going to work all out for the better.

For instance I have been told many times that each one of my children had something special planned for them by God.  My oldest who has a heart of gold when it comes to others who are hurting but not afraid to tell anyone the truth, I was told was going to be a missionary.  My son who for a long time could talk to you over and over again about the bible and seemed to soak it all in even when some didn’t realize it was going to be a GREAT man of God.  My youngest just has a heart for people period and I have always been told she will use her pains for glory and to hlep others in the future.  All things that for the longest time I have held on to.  But I am faltering……

You see I may have kept my kids in church but I wasn’t much of a roll model outside of it.  I drink, I fornicated, I cursed, I smoked.  so many things in front of my children showing them that I am a sinner and in all tense and purposes a hypocrite.  So they have all turned their backs on church and I am afraid, God.  and it’s all my fault.  Or so that is what I have been telling myself.  BUT I have been told many many times lately that they are old enough to make their choices and to just have faith and stop blaming myself.

So I look and try to figure out what this Faith thing is that I keep telling myself I have but sometimes wonder.  Hebrews 11:1 starts the chapter out with a definition of Faith.

Hebrews 11:1 (KJV)

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

 

The Substance of things hoped for.  Well I am holding on to that hope that I didn’t totally screw up my kids’ salvation.  I am holding on to that hope that all those things I was told about them will come true.  God has been trying and trying to get me to understand and to lean more on faith and it is so hard.  He keeps telling me to just be patient through all these tough times and have faith that His plan will be reveled in due time.  His plans for my children, His plans for this world and His plans for me.  Although I am a speck of dirt He has plans and promises for me as well.

Hebrews 11 goes on to summarize so many of the stories of the bible that show the men and women that had faith.  Noah built an ark because God told him he was going to flood the earth.  He had faith that God was telling him the truth and he saved his family because of his Faith.  Abraham went to sacrafice his son Issac because he had Faith that God would not tell him to do something if there wasn’t a reason.  And at the last minute God stopped him and gave him a lamb to sacrafice instead.  So many different stories where people had faith and although they may not have seen those promises come to pass for them they still walked in that faith because as it says at the end of Hebrews 11

39These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised,

40since God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.

We will all see those promises come to pass in the end together.  And as for me and my lack of faith and my sinning in front of my kids, well none of us are perfect until that end.

So I guess what I am trying to say by all of this is that we all need to hold on to our Faith in what God is telling us just a little tighter.  Stop complaining about what is going wrong in our lives so much and start seeing things as just the path we have to follow in order to get to that promise.  Hold on to that faith that the promise will come to pass.

Lord,

   Thank you so much for everything today.  Both the good and the bad.  All I can ask and say at the moment is to help me strengthen my faith in you.  Help me to remember your promises and learn to be happy in all that you have for me.  In your holy name I pray.  AMEN

GIANTS 2

Earlier I posted about what I saw this morning and how it made me realize that no matter how small we are with the help of our Lord and our faith and belief we can defeat any giant.  Well that was confirmed to me again during my devotionals at lunch in two different books.  First:

Micah 4:13  Rise and thresh, Daughter Zion,

for I will give you horns of iron;

I will give you hooves of bronze,

and you will break to pieces many nations.”

I believe that in this verse Micah is confirming that the Lord gives us the power to rise up and break apart any curse that we believe is against us and every giant that we can not seem to defeat.  the Lord is giving us the tools to do so we just have to have faith that He will.  We have to have hope and knowledge that He sent is son to go before us and His son is standing there waiting for us to give Him the baton.  Which leads me to the second verse that stood out to me today:

Hebrews 6: 19 We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, 20where our forerunner, Jesus, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek

For some reason while I was reading this all I could think of was a marathon runner or whatever they are called that they do part of the lap and then they have a partner on the other side of a line to hand the baton off to who will finish the race.  Jesus is our hope and he is our partner waiting on the other side of that curtain waiting for us to hand him the baton so that he can finish this race for us.  We just need to have faith that He can.  We have to place our hopes and our dreams (our batons) in his hand so that he can run and face our giants for us or with us.

Thank you so much, Lord, for giving us your son as our partner in this race called Life.  Thank you for taking our hopes and our dreams and making them glorious and into the biggest win we will ever know.  Help us to continue leaving that baton in Jesus’ hand and if we drop it and stumble help us remember that we just need to pick it up and give it back to you and to Jesus’  We love you and we worship your Holy Name.  AMEN

Giants beware

As I am driving to work today I see a small dog chase away a big dog three times or more his size from the small dogs home.  Then a little while later I see an old man jogging down the street punching at the air and all I can do is beam with gratefulness because I hear that voice telling me “See doesnt matter how small you are or how big your giants are you CAN chase them away.  May take you doing it over and over again but I promise there will be a day when they are gone.  You just have to have faith and believe in yourself and me knowing that we are strong enough for anything. Just like that little dog knew he could get rid of that giant dog know that you can get rid of your giant.  Just like that old man have faith and prepare yourself for that moment because it will come.”

Thank you Lord for your strength.  Thank you for your faithfulness. Thank you for your love.  We must remember even in the darkest times that You are all we need. 

Being Fake

So many of us are walking around calling ourselves Christians. We look and talk the part but do we actually live it? If e are not truly living it, if our hearts aren’t filled with complete love for Him but instead with fear and unbelief, only going to Him when we are scared, then we are just mocking Him. We tease Him with our promises to do as He asks and our promises to love Him. Do we not realize that He knows the truth? Just like a child who looks into their parents eyes and lies to them, we do also to the Lord, and as parents we know the truth and so does He.

When will we as humans stop playing this game? I am talking to ME! It is a theme from Him the last week. When will I finally surrender and give my whole self to Him?

Lord, I am on my knees begging your forgiveness. I give you no promises as I am only human and only you know my heart and path. Help me, Lor, to be straight and honest with you and to stop teasing and mocking you. In your Holy Name I yell out AMEN!!

Isaiah 1:13 Stop bringing meaningless offerings! Your incense is detestable to me. New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations— I cannot bear your worthless assemblies (We need to come with a true heart NOT a fake fearful heart.)

Isaiah 5:18 Woe to those who draw sin along with cords of deceit, and wickedness as with cart ropes, 19to those who say, “Let God hurry; let him hasten his work so we may see it. The plan of the Holy One of Israel— let it approach, let it come into view, so we may know it.” (When begging Him to come we need to be sincere NOT mocking Him as if we don’t believe Him.